Here we are ten days in. Drinking coffee in my loft, I was contemplating these two words: New Year.
What's so new about it? I thought.
Then, something occurred to me. A truth occurred to me. So simple, yet, it snuck up on me like an unexpected friend who pays you a surprise visit from out of town.
You hear a faint sound and wonder what it could be. You turn, and there is your dear friend, suitcase in hand, come to pay a visit. She's smiling this big goofy grin. You embrace. You may even shed a tear or at the very least get misty eyed over this unexpected rarity.
Truth visited me. I just love it when she comes over!
Truth, sweet Truth, what have you to teach me today?
Your New Year doesn't feel "New" because you have yet to release the old.
I quieted my soul and listened as Truth wrapped her arms around me and continued to speak.
Every past year of your life is gone. Whatever did or didn't happen within that time frame is out of your control now. You are older than you've ever been and younger than you'll ever be in this very moment. Every defeat is over, every victory archived. Every year has it's laughter and tears but you've got to relinquish it all if you want to move forward. Look ahead rather than behind you. There's a reason why all cars have huge windshields and small rearview mirrors. You are not meant to look behind you in order to go forward, and forward you must go.
You feel as though you should be further along in your journey by now and you chide yourself for not being stronger, braver, healthier, and more alive. Yet, you've forgotten something very important and that is why I'm here.
I want to remind you that you are still becoming who you were meant to be. That you are beautiful right in this moment, and you are enough. You've got some areas of your life that still need attending to, sure. The truth is, everyone does. No, really. Everyone. None of us have "arrived", no, not even one. But, Dear Warrior, no matter what you have or have not done, no matter what has happened to you….yours is a radiant soul worthy of love and respect.
Nothing that you have done can make your Heavenly Father love you less. Nothing you do now can make Him love you more. You see, He is Love. He thought it up. His love for you is already perfect, whole, immeasurable, and everlasting. Contained within His love is everything you need for your joy and peace of mind.
You're feeling discouraged because you're still clinging to yesterday's "What ifs". Let them go. Some "What ifs" are harder to let go of than others. Some you'll be able to pitch away like a baseball, with a quick and powerful release. Some will require a more delicate dismissal. It's alright to go slower. Like a child with a kite. First you must wait for wind. Then you release first the kite itself, then you'll let out the string. When it's out of your sight, when you've stopped focusing on it alone, then you'll have the strength to let go of the tail and bequeath it to the skies.
It's all okay, as long as you are willing to do what is required to surrender that which is no longer meant for you.
Haggard thought processes. Hurt feelings. Unforgiveness. Expectations. Settling. Resentment. Disappointments. Fake friendships. Cast those things off of yourself into His hands. Walk away from it all, and go where the peace and love are. Look ahead and watch God's promises unfold. Because nothing that you've experienced in yesterday has the power to nullify any of His promises for you. His plan for you is still there; active, alive, and always good.
When God designed His plan for your life, it was never dependent on your ability to be perfect. Your mistakes are not a shock to Him and He will often use them as a launching pad for your greatest calling.
Relying on God is not a once and for all type of occurrence. It begins again every day, remembering and receiving His mercies. Don't forget to remember that they are brand spanking new every single morning. When you opened your eyes today- yesterday, with all it's pain and glory was gone...and His mercy is new.
Let your footfall land upon His mercies as though they are stepping stones to a fresh new beginning. You don't need to fight for this, it is His gift to you. Even if there've been times in the past when you've been out of His will, you've never been out of His care.
Go forward, Beloved. You are so very loved.
Thank you, Truth. Thank You, God.